The third and final installment of our Community Correspondent Emma Goodlad’s sleep diary
So, getting to sleep is much better, I can’t believe the difference focusing and using a couple of things on my phone is having. Bloody Andy from Headspace actually woke me up the other night after I’d fallen asleep in a quiet bit of a meditation… so I cancelled my subscription. Anyway, why pay when they have 10 free meditations?
Mornings are still a battle (although some, I can get up with minimal grumbling).
Most nights I am asleep by 11pm. My first alarm is at 5:45am, plus snoozes, so I get at least 7 hours of sleep (not counting waking during the night).
But I can’t get out up before 9am unless I absolutely have to (and even then, not always). The mornings I get up early enough to travel to work with my husband, I spend half an hour in bed after my alarm – which then impacts on my poor dog who doesn’t get as long a walk as I’d like to be able to give him. So– on the days I’m in bed until 9am – that’s 10 hours of sleep. That’s a lot of sleep, that’s ridiculous!!
So why am I tired all the time? And why do I struggle to get out of bed at all some days? I probably know the answer. I want to keep the world at bay, I don’t want to see or speak to anyone, I don’t want to go out in the daylight and I don’t want anyone to see me.
I’m struggling to work out what helps, other than absolute definite appointments. (And even then, I struggle. I was due in Edinburgh for work a couple of weeks ago and couldn’t hack it and stayed in bed).
All I know is that the days I feel absolutely awful and don’t want to get out of bed are probably the worst days to stay in bed.
And the days where I don’t feel so bad, but I’m still totally knackered, are ok to stay in bed a little longer because I know I’ll manage it a few hours later.
It’s all so much easier said than done – how do I change my patterns when the very illness I’m trying to manage keeps me in bed when I should get up? It’s like a strong magnet keeping me there.
I’m trying to work out and have no idea where to start. Where does the line lie? How do I get myself out of bed on the days I don’t want to, but need to most of all? Is it always bad to stay in bed? I really don’t know the answers. I reckon this is something that I’ll ponder for some time.
Emma kept a sleep diary as part of our bed theme. Emma’s previous blogs