I have a love/hate relationship with my bed


@hippychick1987 , our Community Correspondent Ann Marie Sharpe shares her conflicted relationship with her bed

With regards to my mental illness, I have a love/hate relationship with my bed.

Due to my medication side effects, high anxiety levels and fatigue from bipolar depression, I spend a great deal of time in bed.

When I am ill, I often can not stay awake or can not face the world. During these times my bed provides a comfortable, safe and quiet place I can rest and wait until the storm passes.

However the amount of time I have to be in bed when I wish I could be up and functioning,  doing other things, makes me resent this time I have to spend there. I would much rather be
awake and part of the world, instead of wasting my time lying down. This is a constant battle in my head, because when I am ill being in bed gives me a place to recover and to stay safe, without it I don’t think I could cope with my illness.

However I want to battle the fatigue and get up, and function. In the long run I know that resting allows me to cope, but the resentment of my illness and fatigue for taking this time away
from me, is always a residual presence in the back of my mind.

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One Response to I have a love/hate relationship with my bed

  1. Pam Sharpe June 7, 2016 at 7:52 pm #

    You are A TRUE FIGHTER Thankfully…I am so

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