The Orchestration of my Anxiety

We’re pleased to present a poem from our newest community correspondent, Maureen Gilmour. It’s called The Orchestration of My Anxiety.

Tap, tap,the conductor holds his baton….here it starts.
Drum roll…..thrumming vibration in my torso….the tremor,  shaking begins.
Palpitations. …faster and faster the beat increases.
My heart pounding in my ears, the echo like a Base drum, keeping rhythm.
Gut churning, the need to urinate….into the loo…the flute sounds….the tinkling of urine.
Then the wind section begins.
And so the symphony goes on…..Fear, trepidation,  anticipation, anxiety, the negativity, doom, gloom, catastrophising.
Playing to my audience of strangers, ignorant to the facts.
In the pit of my stomach the symptoms build, rolling waves, like a washing machine, it reaches its crescendo,  like symbols crashing.
Face flushing, sweating, shaking….outwardly calm.
Exhaustion, tiredness, an overwhelming need for it to stop!
The quietness of the aftermath….but yet……
The continual thrumming, awaiting the next…..
The conductor lifts his baton…..tap, tap and on so it begins….here we go again.
Me… expert in the orchestration of my anxiety.

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5 Responses to The Orchestration of my Anxiety

  1. Laura McGlinn May 6, 2017 at 11:47 am #

    This is a fantastic piece and encapsulates that whole feeling of living in an anxious state.Im extremely proud to be part and share Maureen’s Re-Discovery of herself and have her in my Life.Even now part of My Living Breathing WRAP.Extremely talented in so many ways and most definetly has to be reminded how priceless she is to so many.Cant wait to see further pieces from Maureen because she gets it!

  2. Andrea O'Rourke May 6, 2017 at 1:29 pm #

    I absolutely love this work by Maureen , it clearly shows the inner torment and turmoil and the outer face for show , I look forward to seeing more work from Maureen

  3. Pauline Marshall May 6, 2017 at 3:52 pm #

    ell done Maureen didnt know you wrote poetry too. Hope this finds you feeling better

  4. Doleen May 7, 2017 at 6:39 pm #

    Wow Maureen, that is fantastic. Go you! Xxx

  5. Dorothy Middleton June 22, 2017 at 11:06 pm #

    To my sister, who is healing slowly, fantastic poetry.
    If you could only see yourself as we see you – a very strong, caring and loving mother, sister, aunt and great aunt.
    Love you xxx

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